pepperoni pizza and peanut butter

hmmmmmmmm...today is the last day of 2008...i'm kind of glad it's finally over...it's for changes...time for me to turn over new leaves...make my bed and never get back into it...LoL...well anyway...it's just time to be different...this has been a very tough and trying year...i've had people i've considered "friends" talk crap about me and then they acted as if nothing was the matter...but i can't expect much from them anyway...they talk mess about their "best friends" all the time...running their mouths all the time...but that was a lesson learned...this is the exact reason why i don't like to let people in...i just end up getting hurt...but this year WILL be different...i'm trying and learning how to let things out and not keep them in...cause it's only killing me and it's only breaking me down...and i know i have a million and one people who would be willling to sit and listen to what i have to say but sometimes i just feellike if i tell them what's wrong or what's bothering me...i'll just be burdening them with my issues...so i let it go and don't bother them with my problems...but yeah...i went to my friend's kwanzaa celebration on dec 26th...and i didint think much of it...we usually talk about which one of the 7 principles that we want to follow for the following year...and i always pick KUJICHAGULIA which means SELF-DETERMINATION (To define ourselves, name ourselves, create for ourselves and speak for ourselves) but i never follow it...which is ironic because of it's meaning...i wasnt at all determined this semester...i lost all motivation to do anything...i had no drive...but i plan to make this year a better one...i want to have mucho KUJICHAGULIA for the coming ssemester and year and years to come...i will make it my duty to do a better job i felt like i was such a b!tch to sooo many people recently...and i never meant to be that way...i've just been going through so many things this year and i don't know how to express it...but this year i'm gonna make a pact to change those ways...and get rid of some of the things/people who caused the negative changes in my life...well anyway...goodbye '08 and hello '09