update

So I have not written in almost two months...but it wasn't done intentionally...it's just that all of my past blogs were written before the new semester started...and I had time to do whatever I wanted...well a lot has happened since then...::sigh::...I've been very busy...I'm either in class, a meeting, practice or at work...but I'm making it all happen.

So great news...I love my major [[ linguistics ]] ...its really exciting and different...

Even better news...I finally let him go...I finally told him that I couldn't take it anymore and I was done hanging around when he didn't care about me or loved me [[ the way I wanted him to ]]...when I told him that I only wanted to be friends and nothing more...I was told that I was "full of shit" and then hung up on...it took soooooooo much out of me to not call back and tell him about hisself...but I chose to not to because that would show that I cared...a few weeks later around Valentine's Day he he's harrassing me asking if he can be my Valentine...I don't get you...you say I'm full of shit but you want to be my Valentine...then a week later he's calling and texting me talking about why am I acting up...I know I messed up but you're taking it too far now...I would never push you away like that...

But the thing is that...you have...soooo many times before...and every single time I've taken you back...and brushed everything you ever done to me to the side...because I loved you...and I was willing to put my feelings on the back burner...but I was done feeling this way for someone who couldn't show how much they cared because they were "too far away"...but that is garbage and I can no longer stand around and feel this way...

Right now...I'm not looking for anyone...I'm just focusing on my books and work and the orgs that I am involved in...granted there is someone that I am pursuing but this time I will take it slow because there are some barriers that are affecting our potential relationship...but honestly I'm not sweating anything...whatever happens happens...I just won't hold my hopes too high...

Whewww that was a lot...but its been a while since I've last posted...sooo yeah...anywho...GOB BLESS and BE SAFE ALWAYS!!!