Let It Go!!!

so i've been feeling a lot like this lately...and i was trying to understand how to deal with it all...because no matter how much you say and believe that you can deal...there is always that voice in the back of your head that will try to pull you back...my aunt just sent me an e-mail today that confirmed that it is possible to "let it go"...no matter what it is...



By T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk.
I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you,
caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for
us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go..

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over and you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.
You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth.....

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you ........

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction.....

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents

LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship...............

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves.....

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed .........

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying 'take your hands off of it,' then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2009!!!


LET IT GO!!!

Get Right or Get Left .. think about it, and then .

LET IT GO!!!

'The Battle is the Lord's!'

update

So I have not written in almost two months...but it wasn't done intentionally...it's just that all of my past blogs were written before the new semester started...and I had time to do whatever I wanted...well a lot has happened since then...::sigh::...I've been very busy...I'm either in class, a meeting, practice or at work...but I'm making it all happen.

So great news...I love my major [[ linguistics ]] ...its really exciting and different...

Even better news...I finally let him go...I finally told him that I couldn't take it anymore and I was done hanging around when he didn't care about me or loved me [[ the way I wanted him to ]]...when I told him that I only wanted to be friends and nothing more...I was told that I was "full of shit" and then hung up on...it took soooooooo much out of me to not call back and tell him about hisself...but I chose to not to because that would show that I cared...a few weeks later around Valentine's Day he he's harrassing me asking if he can be my Valentine...I don't get you...you say I'm full of shit but you want to be my Valentine...then a week later he's calling and texting me talking about why am I acting up...I know I messed up but you're taking it too far now...I would never push you away like that...

But the thing is that...you have...soooo many times before...and every single time I've taken you back...and brushed everything you ever done to me to the side...because I loved you...and I was willing to put my feelings on the back burner...but I was done feeling this way for someone who couldn't show how much they cared because they were "too far away"...but that is garbage and I can no longer stand around and feel this way...

Right now...I'm not looking for anyone...I'm just focusing on my books and work and the orgs that I am involved in...granted there is someone that I am pursuing but this time I will take it slow because there are some barriers that are affecting our potential relationship...but honestly I'm not sweating anything...whatever happens happens...I just won't hold my hopes too high...

Whewww that was a lot...but its been a while since I've last posted...sooo yeah...anywho...GOB BLESS and BE SAFE ALWAYS!!!

Erasable Ink

i thought maybe i could try to change the past
and start anew
start fresh
make everything right again
cause my heart is breaking
it can't take no more
it can't function
i can't function
life ain't what it used to be
i shouldn't always be confused
unsure of where to go
what corner to turn
which direction to walk in
maybe i should change it all
give me the eraser so that i could clean the blackboard
forget about it all
but
if i erase it all i'm bound to make the same mistakes again
bound to get heartbroken again
i thought that using erasable ink would've made it easier to cope
but i got it all wrong
i can't use it to solve everything
can't use it to get rid of the pain
but i can use it to soothe it
use the erasable ink on something worthwhile
and use it to alter my present
so that my future will be something to look forward to

crush [wign]

whenever i see you or even hear someone say your name.
i get nervous.
and can't speak in full sentences.
cat's got a hold of my tongue and won't let go.
got my heart palpitating even faster than usual.
short of breath too and can't breathe right.
i don't understand why i'm feeling this way.
somebody's doing back flips in my stomach.
knees about to buckle from under me.
[hope i don't fall]
they say its a crush.
that's not sounding too nice though.
i'm feeling you just not the side affects.
crushes are just that.
they're meant to be tough or they would be called something else.
why couldn't you have another name and make it better for all of us?
make life easier to deal.
but i'm determined to make this work.
determined to get up from under the debris.
to make you mine.
to control my breathing on my own.
turn this crush into a victory.

WIGN!!!

sooooo i was talking to my friend, who goes to FLORIDA A&M,about music and dancing and he was telling me about the "dancing" that they do down there and he was showing me videos from youtube...and there was one song that caught my ear...it has a nice little beat to it and it made me want to get up and dance tooo...i love that it's sped up...it gives it personality...LoL...anyway...enjoy...even though this music is like 7 months old...


[[this is the real SPED up version...but i like this one better]]

Wign - C.O.A Legacy


[[original version...still sped up...but not as fast]]

wign fast - LEGACY COA


WU-TANGing


here's another one...WiGN and BoPPiN

Wanna Play A Game???

LoL...since i'm such a music fien...i decided to add some more music videos and songs that i love...here's some of my favorite oLD SCHooL songs...



awwwwww...remember the little rat-tail guys used to have...my little cousin always had one

I Like The Way (The Kissing Game) - Hi-Five


i remember making up my own dance to this song...classic

candy rain - soul 4 real
[[ have you ever loved some one sooo much you thought you'd die??? ]]


yall ready for me???
i remember i had the biggest crush on him...LoL...i still do

Just A Friend 2002 - Mario

i couldn't find the video...but this is my song...

my boo - inoj - INOJ


remember the rugrats movie...remember the rugrats show...before they changed it to ALL GROWN UP...i miss those days???

Take Me There / Mya feat.Blackstreet & Mase - Mya

90s Rock

i was talking to my friend the other day about how i would rather listen to r & b music from the late 80's and 90's...music just isn't the same anymore...and i stumbled across SAMMiE...remember his first song that came out..."i like it"...he was soooo cute and innocent back then...i remember me and my little sister used to sing that song alllllllllllllllll the time...the whole theme was sooo cute...the RED LiGHT GREEN LiGHT...1-2-3...i wish music was still like this...so you could just sit there and chill...

[[ i like the way you look at me...i like the time we spend baby...i like what we have grown to be...i like giirrrrrlll...don't you know I LIKE IT!!! ]]

I LIKE IT - SAMMIE


and here's a little bonus...
LoL...when they're walking by the fountain...notice how he stands on the ledge to appear taller than her cause he's sooo little...awww how cute

Crazy things i do - sammie

pepperoni pizza and peanut butter

hmmmmmmmm...today is the last day of 2008...i'm kind of glad it's finally over...it's for changes...time for me to turn over new leaves...make my bed and never get back into it...LoL...well anyway...it's just time to be different...this has been a very tough and trying year...i've had people i've considered "friends" talk crap about me and then they acted as if nothing was the matter...but i can't expect much from them anyway...they talk mess about their "best friends" all the time...running their mouths all the time...but that was a lesson learned...this is the exact reason why i don't like to let people in...i just end up getting hurt...but this year WILL be different...i'm trying and learning how to let things out and not keep them in...cause it's only killing me and it's only breaking me down...and i know i have a million and one people who would be willling to sit and listen to what i have to say but sometimes i just feellike if i tell them what's wrong or what's bothering me...i'll just be burdening them with my issues...so i let it go and don't bother them with my problems...but yeah...i went to my friend's kwanzaa celebration on dec 26th...and i didint think much of it...we usually talk about which one of the 7 principles that we want to follow for the following year...and i always pick KUJICHAGULIA which means SELF-DETERMINATION (To define ourselves, name ourselves, create for ourselves and speak for ourselves) but i never follow it...which is ironic because of it's meaning...i wasnt at all determined this semester...i lost all motivation to do anything...i had no drive...but i plan to make this year a better one...i want to have mucho KUJICHAGULIA for the coming ssemester and year and years to come...i will make it my duty to do a better job i felt like i was such a b!tch to sooo many people recently...and i never meant to be that way...i've just been going through so many things this year and i don't know how to express it...but this year i'm gonna make a pact to change those ways...and get rid of some of the things/people who caused the negative changes in my life...well anyway...goodbye '08 and hello '09

Just Like Me...

Soooo...Jamie Foxx has a new single out with T.I. called "Just Like Me"...I first heard the song a few days ago...even though it's probably been out for a while...but I don't listen to the radio or watch BET or MTV...my tv is usually on channel 33...NiCKELoDEoN...and if I'm online...I'm usually on AIM or Facebook...well any whos...I heard the song and thought that it was really nice...really cute...something I could sing along to...and what gave it like 30+ points was that I loved the beat...sometimes I listen to the beats and bases of the song more than I do to the lyrics...and the video was just as cute and funny...leave it to Jamie to have you laughing non-stop...it was kind of hard to listen to the words and watch the video at the same time...pick one or the other...well here's the video...ENJoY!!!



Just Like Me (Official Music Video) HQ - Jamie Foxx Ft. TI

Be Blessed

Sooo...this week has not been going so well for me. It's been really busy and hectic. I was in two performances back to back this weekend. C.S.O.'s Fashion Show on Friday and the Stony Brook's Gospel Choir's concert on Saturday. Then I just found out that I'm a whore-slut-bag-skeet-skeet on campus. Sooo that's just great and I'm really excited about that!!!

I can't deal with this right now...finals are coming up and I need to focus on that...not on who is talking about me.

I think what's hurts more than the accusations is that the girl who I found it out from knew from last semester and never said anything...and when she does bring it up...it was on a day that I was not at work to defend myself. I think that's crazy because she has my number...my screename...we work together. So I don't understand why she couldn't tell me herself...without a million people being around...a whole semester later.

I really want to transfer from this school...I never even wanted to come here from the beginning...so this puts the icing on the cake...but even if I did want to transfer where would I go...I definetely do not want to live at home. So as much as I am broken, hurt and wounded right now I just have to move on. I know who all of my friends are.

I titled this post BE BLESSED...because of Yolanda Adams' song. The chorus goes "Be blessed/Don't live life in distress/ Just let go/ Let God/ He'll work it out for you/ I pray/ that your soul will blessed/ Forever in his Hands/ For you deserve His best/ No less"
I am going to continue listening to that song and lean on God because you can't depend on anyone but Him.

Be Blessed - Yolanda Adams