Runaway..

This past Saturday, October 22nd, Kanye released a short film, Runaway, that was featured on two channels, BET and MTV.
This 34 minute short film was about his failed relationship with a Phoenix. I'm not the biggest fan of this "new" Kanye but I must admit that this video was well put together. He leaves so much room for ambiguity and abstract, what I consider a real artist to be.

I Choose Me

This is just something that I was thinking about recently and decided to write it down, while I was supposed to be paying attention in class, but that is another story for another day...
I hope you enjoy it because it is from the heart and I'm putting myself out there and exposing my vulnerability.

five years
committed to you
i mean, like, my body, soul, my heart
you took me that cold, rainy day
&i submitted, became your slave
silly of me to think that that would change you
so i decided to change me
maybe if i altered me a little it would get better
eventually, hopefully... one day
was available to you whenever you called
no matter the time, weather or place
you took note of this &took full advantage
they say that those that love the least controls the relationship the most
the more control you took the weaker i became
broken and weak, i slowly diminished
i wasn't the same anymore
i wasn't the same Natasha that smiled &was happy
NO...
every night i crawled deeper &deeper into a hole of darkness &depression
but as i was buried deep there inside of that dark tunnel
i saw a bright light that shown down &told me to start digging free
that light told me to dig closer to freedom &away from you
so i did
i dug for what felt like ions
but i broke free
built up all the strength i had once lost
&told you that i was done &it was over
said i was done loving someone who didn't love me the same way that i loved them
i was done trying to change someone who did not want to be changed
i was done putting you 1st when i wasn't your #1
how hard was it to commit to someone who you had been involved with for almost 6yrs
i was done being your fool, your rag doll
i deserved real love from someone who was capable of giving it to me the right way
i can no longer wait for you to get your shit together
my time is valuable &precious and so am i
so, i choose me...

Boys With Girlfriends

I must start this post off with an LOL, the male species are a hilarious bunch! Why do guys, well let me rephrase that, why do people in general lie about having a boyfriend or girlfriend. If you are really in love or "in like" with them WHY lie about them?! And at the end of the day you WILL be found out AND exposed! It will happen! But any way, I thought this song fit perfectly to the situation! Enjoy